3 Writing Confessions

Wordbound is a weekly writing prompt, run by fellow writer, YouTuber, cosplayer, and blogger, Kristina Horner. Every week the exercises are posted to Twitter and Instagram for anyone who wants to take part in the challenge. I'll admit, making writing a priority has not been easy. (Probably due to a combination of my mental health and my multipotentiality.) Last week, however, a blog prompt was posted to Wordbound which I'm hoping is the inspiration I need. So what are my 3 writing confessions, you ask?

#1. I don't share my fiction. 
When I was in my teens I wrote much more and I wrote with friends and wrote for class (creative writing was the best time I had in English class!) I didn't post any of it online though. (Not even my Cats fanfiction.) In my 20s and 30s, I blog publically online but I don't really let others read my fiction. I've only shared my first NaNoWriMo novel (with maybe two people) and no one's read the other three. I wonder if that's because I don't think I'm good enough or because I really like what I write and I don't want to hear any of the criticisms. Am I aspiring to something and I want to get better or is writing just for me and the quality of it doesn't matter? I'm not sure I know, and that leads me to the second confession.

#2. I'm wishy-washy with my goals.
It's true, I once proclaimed that I wanted to be a published author...when I was a child. I had just read the first book in the vampire series, 'In the Forests of the Night' by Amelia Atwater-Rhodes. She wrote that at age 13...and I was 13. I could do this, couldn't I? Was I already too late? I'll just keep writing. If I had just stuck with that goal and not gotten 'distracted' by film and costume design (and many other interests) then I'd be a lot further along than I am. But I didn't stick to that goal, I'm a multipotentialite and sticking to one goal is not something I do very well. Some days I think I'm finally gonna get serious about writing and other days I swear that it's just a hobby. Honestly, I'm really not sure what my goals are when it comes to writing...and I don't like that.

#3. I hold back so as not to 'use up' my best ideas.
I know that thinking that the 'well of creativity' I have will eventually dry up, is rubbish. That well is endless. Yet my instinct to save and to hoard my great ideas so I don't waste them is pretty strong. I'm a collector and I don't like 'using up' things. It's a problem. I know a lot of writers and creative people are like this and you just have to keep writing and know that your 'best' ideas are not your 'last' ideas. You will come up with more and better ideas the more you write. I know this. I just need to actually put that knowledge into action...and 'use up' everything I got! (Easier said than done, obviously.)

So this was the first Wordbound I've publically participated in and I loved it! I'm debating making a big list of all of them and eventually catching up. If you have any advice for how to publically participate since I'm still shy/cautious about sharing the fiction prompts, (maybe I share just a sentence?) let me know! Thank you for reading and thank you to Krisitina for creating Wordbound, you are my unofficial writing mentor....just fyi. ;)