Life Lately : Free Writing My Thoughts

This is a slightly blurry screenshot from the Instagram video I posted over the weekend. The blurriness represents my current outlook on the world. Seriously, I need a new glasses prescription. It came on fast but I no longer feel safe driving at night. Thankfully, I'm not in a position where I need to before I get new glasses. I'm trying so hard to not take this time for granted, this work-from-home-tons-of-free-time lifestyle. It will probably end just as I'm really appreciating it.

Jim and I have decided that January and February don't count and we're starting our new year's resolutions/intentions with the Chinese New Year. We're supposedly both optimistic and independent Fire Tigers, though the 'self-confident' nature of Year of the Tigers doesn't seem to fit for me personally. (Honestly, the only personality test that's fit so far for me is the Enneagram test.) I only really treat personality test type things the same way I treat motivational a catalyst for my creative writing. Which is to say, I don't take any of it too seriously.

It's an attitude I should really be expanding to other aspects of my life. Namely, the relationship I have with the media I adore. Practice in; not seeing it as a personal attack when my taste in films, music, tv shows, musicalset cetera, et cetera, is called into question; is something I don't have much of. (I also should practice limiting my run-on sentences though that is something I have yet to be called out on.)

This is my second week of free writing my thoughts publically on my blog. I really enjoy sharing my 'life lately' in an odd stream-of-consciousness sort of way. I think I will continue it as a new feature. If you're here for the travel photos/wedding photos/cosplay photos, yes yes yes, that will be another aspect of me returning to my blog. I want to share everything. Your patience will be rewarded.

Life Lately

I've been feeling unfocused lately. Time passes in blinks and then drawn out as if in slow motion. It's not predictable, follows no pattern that I can see, but I'm also in the center of it so my perspective may not be reliable. Structure is hard to find when the consequences for breaking it are low. That's where I'm at, at nearly three years into this adventure. Is it a matter of basic mental health, self-discipline, or something I have yet to uncover about myself?

I am seeing a pattern here, however. Annoyingly vague, pseudo-artsy words strung together, like a sad song lyric on an AIM away message, just begging to be asked: "Hey are you okay?" "I'm fine. (but ask me again)" The sort of writing that feels so deeply personal yet so heavily guarded at the same time. I tell myself it's therapeutic or maybe a simple writing exercise. Though in a month I'll read it and cringe and remind myself that I'm almost thirty-two and this teen angst is way past its sell-by date.

Hey guys, it's time for my monthly favorites! After discovering the political affiliation of a favorite artist I'm diving heart first into a show with a fandom so fiercely impassioned that I once avoided it like having to make a cold call. Yet now I'm so fully converted that it only makes me that much more furious at the unfulfilled coaxing of the writers that I can't even talk about it because my feelings are so conflicted. So while moving from the "don't meet your heroes" slogan to the "your fav is problematic" one could be seen as a lateral move, I'm feeling, at least anonymously, better about it. 

In addition to my slogans, my demotivational quotes, I also have one piece of advice I give myself when I don't know what else to do: "Be kind to others, including yourself." With that, I leave you, probably confused and hopefully entertained. 

BroadwayCon Prep 2018 for my 1 Year Twitch Streamaversery - (and a video!)

BroadwayCon Prep 2018
It was my one-year Twitch streamaversery this past Tuesday! So what did I do? What I did one year ago, of course, makeup and costume prep for BroadwayCon! That's right BroadwayCon is this weekend! Check out my video about all things BroadwayCon cosplay and scroll below that for more photos!

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Threadwalkers by Joanna Volavka | Author Interview & Book Review

My friend Joanna Volavka is a published author! It's so exciting! I interviewed her about her book Threadwalkers and gave a bit of a review as well.

Will Fandom Save Me?

I'm back! Well, back to YouTube at least. It's those '4th wall'-Stream Of Consciousness-letting my brain unload...on camera...that fills me with peace. Well, until the video goes live and I get filled with: "what if no one watches it?" or (arguably) worse: "what if people do watch it...and judge me." Well, they will, and they'll likely disagree with your Fandom as Meditation theory. The point is, I tend to use YouTube as my place to be my most real and vulnerable on the internet, for better or for worse. This video doesn't explicitly state that I'm using fandom as a way to help regain some spoons, it's what I'm doing. And while I also did not mention it in the video, I rejoined Tumblr and I'm feeling a lot of feels right now, and that's a good thing.

Original London Jennyanydots

Original London Jennyanydots
I had to start the post with this out-of-focus photo because the rest are really creepy. I'm not sure why I feel that way (perhaps it has a horror clown vibe) and it could be the fault of my interpretation. (I used it as the video thumbnail for that reason as well) Anyway, this is my third time trying Jennyanydots makeup. The first was the video version in 2010 and the second was the Broadway version done just before this one. As you cans see I'm still struggling with the white base being patchy in parts and don't even mention my thick and imperfect lining. I have a lot to learn, but since this is just a fun hobby, I'm honestly in no rush.

Original London Jennyanydots
Original London Jennyanydots
Original London Jennyanydots
Original London Jennyanydots
I did this live on my Twitch channel and I also edited the application into a time-lapse below! Be sure to follow and subscribe so you don't miss my next live shows and videos!
Original London Jennyanydots

Original Broadway Jennyanydots

Original Broadway Jennyanydots Since my name is Jenny, I thought it was about time I try Jennyanydots makeup again. I've done the video version of her back in 2010. This time I decided to go with the original Broadway design as portrayed by Anna McNeely. I think it's a pretty cute design, but I wish I had blended the cheek colors more. (I need to practice my water-based makeup blending...not to mention my white base...why is it so patchy?) Despite its flaws, I'm a fan.Original Broadway Jennyanydots Original Broadway Jennyanydots Original Broadway Jennyanydots Original Broadway Jennyanydots I did this live on my Twitch channel and I also edited the application into a time-lapse below! Be sure to follow and subscribe so you don't miss my next live shows and videos! Original Broadway Jennyanydots

The only videos from November - 2017

I only made two videos last month, and only one of them came out in November. I've been quiet online. Sometimes I wonder if I'm growing out of my old hobbies or if I'm just getting tired of them. Other times I wonder if it's my mental health that is interfering. At least I know why last month it was time for a break, and maybe one day I'll talk about it online. Until then, I do hope to return to my blog and my videos and maybe next year things will change for the better. I'm going to keep moving forward.

What I'm Thankful For
It's been a rough month for me but I have many things to be thankful for.

Every Day of NaNoWriMo
November was difficult this year but I kept writing. I filmed (almost) every day of NaNoWriMo.

Jareth the Goblin King (Labyrinth) - Halloween 2017

Jareth the Goblin King
I can't believe it's taken me this long to dress up as Jareth, the Goblin King from my favorite movie of all time, Labyrinth. It's been a long time coming and I'm actually pretty happy with the result despite the 'pieced together' nature of this costume. That's right, I did zero sewing this Halloween. (Well, only if you don't count sewing the stoplight patch on my husband's Team Zissou hat...) It all started with the replica necklace. I got that back in 2007 at San Diego Comic-Con, an officially limited-edition treasure. Then the rest was found in my closet or purchased. If you're a fan then you'll recognize this as his 'Dance Magic Dance' look. (AKA, the fastest and easiest Jareth look.) Also, someone at our Halloween party told me I have David Bowie-like features to my face which help sell the look. I don't know about that, but I am pretty proud of the makeup job I did. (I tried countoring on a non-Cats look!) I'd love to hear your thoughts on my costume in the comments below. Happy Halloween! Jareth the Goblin King Jareth the Goblin King Jareth the Goblin King Jareth the Goblin King

Cats Broadway Revival Review: 3rd Time Seeing the Show!

Here's my review of the Cats revival on Broadway after seeing it for the third time! What a night! (Apparently, I'm a Tugger girl now thank's to Tyler Hanes, oh boy 😹)

First Broadway Cats Review► 
Seeing Cats as MEOWexander► 
My Hamilton Review►


I Love Fall Tag

My friend Sarah told me on Twitter that she'd like to see me do this tag, so who am I to ignore a request! :)

Favorite Fall Scent
Favorite way to spend a rainy day
Favorite fall drink
Football: Yay or nay?
Favorite article of Fall clothing
Scariest movie you’ve ever seen
Favorite candy to eat on Halloween
What will you be for Halloween this year?
Favorite Fall recipe
Favorite thing about Fall

If you make a video doing the I Love Fall tag, let me know!

Broadway Revival Macavity

Broadway Revival Macavity Macavity! The antagonist of Cats. I've done Macavity makeup before, based on the video version of Cats. The Broadway revival of Cats is pretty similar to past western productions but many things have been updated as well. Macavity's costume and makeup, for instance, has developed in an interesting way. He almost feels more like an individual character than a force of evil. Here's my take on his new makeup design. He came out a bit too orange (the character is more of a golden brown I think) but it was an experiment in blending water-based makeup. I'm out of practice for blending...
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Broadway Revival Macavity

Preptober Checklist

Be sure to check out the video at the bottom of the post where I created this checklist live on Twitch (edited shorter for YouTube), and if you’ve come here from that video or the lifestream, hello!

It’s October, the month of Halloween! I’ve got out my spooky but sparse trinkets (moving across the country leads one to cull their holiday decorations) and I’m ready to start planning my NaNoWriMo novel.

I’ve pantsed and plantsed the previous four NaNoWriMo novels, so for the first time, this year I am attempting to fully PLAN my story. Yes, no half-filled-out outlines, no ‘insert character here’, I am going to fully prepare myself as much as this month will allow. Here is my checklist! Note, there is an item for each day of October, you can do one on each day (sorry for the late start) or mix them up, do a few on one day, take breaks. Whatever works for you!

Note: There are some elements from the Snowflake method on here, I am not going through it completely but if you are curious…Google is your friend. ;)

Another Note: This list is assuming you already have a vague idea of what you want to write about, genera picked, and some brainstorming written down.

Third Note: This is my list, so some of the programs, outline structures, will be different from what you end up doing. Use mine as a basic outline and adapt it to what your working with.

1. Officially announce my novel on

2. Set up your Scrivener file.

3. Write a longline. (Who, what, when/where, how, & why)

4. Decide on a plot structure to follow and fill out the basics of it.

5. Outline Act 1 - Block 1

6. Write your 3 disasters and an ending. (Snowflake step 2)

7. Make a list of character names and name ideas.

8. Outline Act 1 - Block 2

9. Get a ‘writing candle’ to light when I write.

10. Research photos for character/setting inspiration.

11. Outline Act 1 - Block 3

12. Figure out your character’s personality types. (Enneagram)

13. Create character summary sheets (Snowflake step 3)

14. Outline Act 2 - Block 4

15. Create a writing music playlist or white noise (I like

16. Write a list of all needed secondary characters.

17. Outline Act 2 - Block 5

18. Write one paragraph outlines for all secondary characters.

19. Complete character questionnaires for the main characters.

20. Outline Act 2 - Block 6

21. Research local NaNoWriMo write-ins.

22. Fill out a world-building questionnaire.

23. Outline Act 3 - Block 7

24. Plan rewards and reward system.

25. Think about meals for November and make some plans.

26. Outline Act 3 - Block 8

27. Create a writing prompt inspiration jar. (Use some things from

28. Stock up on snacks/coffee/tea/treats for November.

29. Outline Act 3 - Block 9

30. Plan a writing routine and schedule.

31. Brag to your friends about NaNoWriMo, gets some accountability going. ;P

the last 3 videos

I'll be honest with you, I've been less motivated to make videos on YouTube lately. I can't fully describe what it is...but I feel uninspired. I'm going to upload something tomorrow that was created in an unconventional way and I hope it's interesting to watch. I think I just need to experiment more and worry less about what other people think.

The last three videos I've made are a vlog (my '4th Wall' series, that I guess is a thing now where I just have an extensional crisis on camera...heh), a make up vlog (get ready with me but not really), and a book review/buddy read/collaboration. (This one felt really good to do.)

Here are the thumbnails, click to go to the videos. Let me know what you think. My YouTube presence has been weird and inconsistant...yet I keep coming back.

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